{NOTE: This was all written a really long time ago....}
So I'm going to start writing the next phase of our little happily ever after but not post until we're actually pregnant. I want to remember the whole process, but also be able to share my whole experience.
Four weeks ago we stopped birth control. We were ready to start our first big journey as husband and wife. Here is kind of how it went down though. The whole stopping of the birth control. Wesley and I since the wedding had talked about how we were still both on board with the idea that we were ok with trying to start a family fairly soon after getting married. We didn't, ok maybe more me than him, didn't really want to be that married couple that waits years to have a baby. The idea would be that we would get through our honeymoon travels and then we would kind of just play it by ear on whether we stop BC right away when we were back and that I would just finish out my last weeks of pills or maybe get one more round.
The week of my 29th birthday was the last of my pills and we needed to decide whether I was refilling or not. Funny enough I usually fill my pills on the Wednesday before they run out, also coincidentally my birthday fell on that day. I got busy and had plans after work and just kind of forgot to stop and get them. Honestly just didn't make a big deal out of it, had a feeling I would just get them on the weekend. Saturday passed and I hadn't had a chance to get them. I definitely needed to get them Sunday as I would need to start the new packet that night. I woke up early that morning. We actually had plans to head out to Wesley's parents house after watching the Green Bay game in the morning. I went into the bathroom, cleaned up quick and was going to run to the grocery store quick before the game. When I came out I said to Wesley, "so I have a question to ask you...." Didn't really get it out, I honestly felt almost scared to ask him. He was like, "babe, what??" To which I responded, "well....um....so. So yeah." To which he said, "you're wondering if you should pick up your pills?" I of course finally said yes. I don't know why I was scared to ask. I guess honestly I was a little worried about what is answer was going to be. I still didn't know 100% is Wesley was fully on board with the baby plans. I basically just said to him listen, we can stop the pill now or in a month's time but really a month isn't going to change much. It was either this month or the next that we had planned on stopping anyways. He said that he felt like maybe waiting one more month wasn't a big deal. I felt a little lump in my throat and yes, part of me felt a little disappointed. Then I felt bad for feeling that way. I just really wanted him to be on board.
I left with the plan then that I needed groceries and pills. Without even realizing I went to the grocery store that wasn't by the CVS that I typically go to. And really it was completely by coincidence. I needed stuff from that store that the one by my CVS didn't carry. By the time I got home I realized that I never swung back over by my CVS. I just figured oh well when we headed out to his parents we'll just stop then.
Watched the Packers game...which we lost in horrible fashion. Ugh...besides the point. We were getting ready to leave and I reminded Wesley that we needed to stop on the way to his parents. He was driving. Full control was up to him now as to whether we were stopping at CVS. Sure enough we drove right past. In that moment I remember he grabbed my hand and we just kept on driving. I smiled a little inside. I knew that was his way of saying he was actually ready.
On the drive out I seriously started googling how to track my ovulation without having to go buy those stupid pee sticks. I wanted to just try everything as naturally as we could. I didn't want to get mental about it. But I at least wanted to get an idea of over the next couple cycles when the right days would be to try. Found them and put notifications in my calendar. I kid you not I had a notification pop up that said you should have sex today. The day after we decided to stop I went to the store and picked up prenatal vitamins. I figured that every night when I was taking my BC pill I would replace it with the prenatal. Might as well start them now I figured. I had always heard as well that a prenatal was actually one of the best multivitamins for a woman anyways.
So yes, we're in week four since we stopped BC. We tried on the times that were supposedly the best days to try. This coming Saturday, the 19th, if I was still on my pills is when I would technically get my period. Today is Monday. I woke up had my shake like usual and left on my way to work. Literally within two minutes of getting in the car and driving I all the sudden felt super nauseous. It was really strange but passed about 10 minutes later. Mid way through today I then started getting the worst cramps. I mean literally I haven't felt cramps like these since I was like 15 or 16. I wanted to just curl up in a ball. When I got home tonight I went next door to talk to Rachael to see if when she had stopped BC this was normal. She said yes, but then when I said I was nauseous this morning got that look in her eye like "OMG I will die if you got preggers this fast". Dude I will be like OMG too.
So we'll see this coming weekend. I mean the odds of me getting pregnant that fast after stopping BC are slim to none. What I do know though is I have major baby fever. I mean literally I see babies now and I swear my ovaries start dancing. I have to say even I'm shocked with myself at just how ready I am to become a mom. I really never pictured me ever feeling like this. Maybe I guess that is what happens when you finally are with a man who you love as much as I love Wesley.
this is precious!! I love the story!!
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