The one about the first Negative Test...

{Again NOTE: This was written a while ago}

So as previously mentioned earlier this week I started getting super nauseous every morning on my way to work.  The cramping hadn't really stopped.  This morning I texted my sister, here is a little bit of the conversation.  Reading it back now it's quite hilarious.

Me: Ok no joke at the same time everyday this week I've gotten nauseous for like 10 minutes, then it goes away.
Me: No I didn't pee on a stick yet
Her: WTF GET THE STICK (yes she used all CAPS)
Me: LOL, I'm scared, not even gonne lie.  Petrified to go get a stick
Me: Just want Saturday/Sunday to come, and if no Aunt Flo, I'll get a stick
Her: GET THE STICK
Her: GET THE STICK TODAY!
Me: LOL, I can't, can't do it, won't.  Need to wait
Her: GET THE STICK
Me: I'm reading a blog on early pregnancy symptoms
Me: Redonkulous
Her: LOL
Me: Let's see do your boobs hurt? - No
Me: Nausea - yes
Me: Cramping similar to period cramping - yes
Me: Back pain - that one isn't really fair because my back hurts all the time
Her: OMG GET THE STICK
Me: Eff me...do you think I got preggers that fast?
Her: It could happen, OMG GET THE STICK TODAY!

This conversation went on a little longer, literally she said "GET THE STICK" like 20 times lol!

It's so weird how you can go from being excited and ready to literally being scared to death that there was a chance you made a little human.  You stop birth control and you're like yes!! Bring on a baby!  Then the first time you could maybe be pregnant after stopping birth control comes along and you're like OMFG!  I guess I just seriously started thinking about what Wesley was going to think.  I honestly felt like he would shit himself if we got preggers that fast.  Especially considering the conversation we had about stopping BC and how it takes a little while for it to get out of your system anyways.  The thought of it literally happening mere days after stopping seemed crazy.

Needless to say I did eventually go buy some sticks that day.  When I got home I pee'd on one of those sticks and it was as negative as negative could be.  There was a brief moment where I did feel kind of sad.  Again it's crazy how your emotions about all of this can change so much.  But then I realized that it's totally fine, and this time around it just wasn't meant to be.  Plus now Wesley wouldn't shit himself.

So most likely then this weekend Aunt Flo will be making a visit and we'll hang out for a few days and then when she's gone and it's time to try again we'll get on that.