Wedding Nightmares.......They're Beginning

Yep, they are definitely beginning.  For the last few weeks on and off I've been having nightmares about the wedding.  They've ranged from my dress getting hung up the morning of the wedding only to find a huge black mark all the way through it, to the tables at the reception mysteriously being completely empty when guests show up to sit down and then everyone laughing at me.  But the worst was probably the one where when I turned to walk up the isle everyone disappeared and I was kind of just left there on the isle and not a sole to be found.  No one, not even the random late golfers that we'll probably see on the day of the wedding.  It was as if the world went dark and everyone was gone.  Maybe I'm watching too much Walking Dead and Revolution at night before I go to bed??  I'm sure some of it has to do with the fact that I'm getting a little more anxious and overwhelmed.  At the same time the fact that time is flying by and now we're inside 8 months away till the wedding.  8 months.  In normal time keeping that seems like a long time away.  It wedding time keeping it just doesn't feel like long enough now.  

Maybe it just really is all the stress I'm feeling.  Everyone was so impressed so early on in the planning that I had gotten so much stuff done so fast.    Yeah that was all stuff like book a venue, get a photographer, get a DJ, find a florist, blah blah.  All that stuff to me was easy to get done right away because I knew what I wanted and knew that because we were having a summer wedding it had to get booked early to ensure we could be guaranteed the date.  So why am I stressed now, so much stuff was done??? Ohh yeah, now it's find a belt for the dress, find linens for the tables, make my guest book idea, get a card holder for cards, oh yeah get a holder or box for the guest book cards, buy frames for centerpieces, make centerpieces and on and on and on. So much little shit that is just going to be so time consuming.  Add on the fact that now it's holiday season so pretty much the rest of November and most of December is actually out the door with Christmas stuff going on.  Thank the lord for some amazing ladies that are helping me get some of the crafting of some of the above mentioned things done.  You know who you ladies are and I love you more than words can describe! <3

At least three people in the last few days have asked me why didn't you pay a coordinator to do all this for you?  My first sarcastic reaction to that would be oh was that going to be your wedding gift?  To pay for it for me?  But the real answer is that if you know me you know that I have a major case of OCD when it comes to the way I do things and how I like things.  I'm not sure that I could actually give someone that much control over the list of things that need to be done.  So in my head I'm like why waste the money when I would probably still end up just doing it all myself because the coordinator was screwing it up.  

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So we're heading to Florida this year for Christmas to spend time with my sister and brother's families.  We can't wait.  It's been a while since I've been able to do Christmas Eve with my sister and her family.  It's always been one of my most favorite memories.  Just being with family on any holiday is special but this truly is one of my most favorite times of the year.  So while we're in Florida not all time can be fun and games and usual family time, we have some serious wedding work to do too.  Since my sister is the Maid of Honor we're going to spend some time together finding her dress.  I can't wait!!  It was definitely a huge emotional thing for me when I was looking for my dress not having my sister there with me so I'm glad that we'll at least be able to do this together.  Other big wedding planning activities will involve a sit down with my brother Mark James to go over our ideas for the ceremony.  I'm still so excited that he's doing us a HUGE HONOR and marrying us.  I've pretty much got the entire ceremony written at this point but just need some of his humor that only he can provide to put into it.

Ok so that is my rant for the day.  It's been about a month again since my last post so here are a few updates of things that I've accomplished for the wedding.

Dress was dropped off on Monday to have the neckline altered and to get the bustle done.  As it stands right now unless something extremely drastic happens to this body of mine I'm not going to need it taken in or let out and luckily the length was perfect so I don't need to worry about a hem up or down either.  I decided to get it done now because the gal I found that could do exactly what I wanted with the neckline mentioned she is going to be having a major surgery after the new year and wasn't sure about how much time she'd be able to commit right after recovery to alterations.  I decided that if in the worst case scenario I do need something taken in at that point closer to the wedding it would be easier to have that done and less stress making sure the neckline I wanted could get done.  First fitting with adjustments should happen shortly after Thanksgiving!!! EEEEEEK.  Can't wait.

The other big decision was that we've finally decided on a charity to donate to in lieu of wedding favors.  Not giving everything away, we obviously want some surprises, but this is a HUGE deal for us and is so very dear to our hearts.

And to make us all laugh here are some of the E-Cards that make me laugh when I get stressed out about this wedding planning.

Oh and Wesley is gonna love this!!

No Seriously....Bitch Slap me and tell me to stop

For reals...I would be lost out of my mind!

Hopefully our almost close to the ocean location helps?